Tuesday, December 13, 2011

2 Days

With 2 days left of this adventure I feel numb.
I cant wait, but I dont want to fail.
People can tell me that even if I dont recieve the answer I want I am set because of all the other positive options I have but its one thing to want something, its another to be wanted in return.

And in this case, all that matters is if they want me.

I thank you for joining me on this long journey.

I leave you today with the hope I have felt during these past 56 days, even though it has dwindled smaller and smaller as the days past, still (unchanged from the beginning of this journey)

I am scared
I am impatient
I am on edge
I am stressed
I am nervous
I am excited
I am jealous
I am anxious

I am waiting

Monday, December 5, 2011

10 dayss

We are officially counting on our fingers now! This is huge, its crazy how fast time blows by when you are focused on work and other things.
With the holidays around the corner I people have been posting videos about their traditions and such. Here in my family we have our traditions, one of which would be the christmas movies we watch. We are huge fans of Elf, in fact we recently watched it, as well as the classics such as Its a Wonderful Life (which we watch every christmas eve), Miracle on 34th Street and Its Christmas Charlie Brown, the list goes on and on.

This topic touches on another topic I posted already about going to the movies and how we, as human beings, have become accustomed to living a certain way due to how our parents raise us and our family dynamics. In an effort not to be repetitive I will end the discussion of family rituals here.

Ten days left until my heart us broken or I am rejoicing over the wonderful gift God has blessed me with. I cant predict on which side the news will be on, its a 50/50 chance and I am truly an awful guesser, however my hopes are high and I wish not to have my heart broken before Christmas comes. In all honesty, not even Christmas itself could cheer me up if I am denied my chance.

Here is a beautiful Video with all of the colors and artistic angles. I also love the song in the background, enjoy!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

What Count Down?

                                                             12          

What is that number up there?

                          Just 10 plus 2
Wait?
            Isn't there some kind of, like, count down occurring on this random, miscelaneas blog? 

OH YES!!

There are only 12 more days to go until December 15!!!! The day  I have been waiting for since August!!!

We are near the home stretch! I can hardly breath, that is how anxious I feel. At times I think I might puke, its ridiculous.
                                               12, twelve, doce,  اثنا عشر

Let the panicking prolong

Friday, November 18, 2011

Perspective

Whenever something big is happening that is going to affect your life everything seems to blow out of proportion. People become stressed and narrow minded. And at times they loose their sense of "measurement". The magnitude of a situation always depends on ones mindset, it is important to stay grounded and always look at things from a different viewpoint. When its actually the end of the world, everyone will know it.

I have been trying to prepare myself for the worst, when these 26 days pass and the news is not what I wanted what will I remember when I look back on that day? An opportunity that was lost? Will I be thinking "If I only worked a little harder", those "coulda", "woulda", "shoulda's" will always rack ones brain. However one must gain a different perspective. Perhaps is wasn't meant to be, I firmly believe there is a purpose to ones life and that in the end the opportunity's given and taken lead us to this purpose.

And so with this I say take the negative bitter sweet moments in life with a gran of salt and move on, because life is worth living, even at the worst of times.

Or at least this is what my mindset is while I wait this long, horrific, mind numbing  3 weeks (26 days)

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

4 Weeks

With 4 more weeks to go the days seem to get longer and longer.
These next two weeks should go fast, what with Thanksgiving break and all but its the following two that im concerned with.

I wish I could go back in time and make it so no one knew of the news I will be receiving, such as friends and family members. You see, getting bad news is always made worse when you have to tell 18 different people the same thing.

I still have hope, and faith but I am holding on with my bare hands and im getting tired. It turns out im not the only one counting these specific 28 days, there are a plethora of others.

I hope all is well in your little corner of the world and that you dont have nearly as much stress heading your way during these next 4 weeks.

Here is a picture of a puppy to make your day brighter! Doesnt it look like he has attitude? Hahaha Enjoy : )

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Dawsons Creek

Today I spent half of the day relaxed on my bed watching old episodes of Dawsons Creek.
I must have thing for "small town" shows seeing how Gilmore Girls, Smallville and Everwood are just a few shows I thoroughly enjoy. I think I thrive off of the friendships that always seem so true and honest. The characters are always so witty, smart, and interesting. They all have some type of drive and ambition. For Rory it was Harvard (which turned into Yale), for Clark it was his destiny to become Superman, for Ephram it was his passion for piano and finally Dawson, whose dream was to become a movie director and he succeeds.

I wish I had an ambition to do something as strong as these characters do.
Lets play a game- whose town is whose?





Did you get them all?

31 dayyyss

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

The Movies

I am making plans to go to the movies this weekend with a friend and now I have buttery popcorn and candy on the mind!

With my family there is a difference between candies, candy for "game night" and candy for movie night. Ever since I started going to the movies with friends I noticed how everyone has their own traditional candy or food, for us its Milk Duds and Popcorn! Always, sometimes its one or the other but never something different. To be completley honest I actually never really noticed the variety of candy offered outside of the occasional Sour-Patch bag that my brother always asked for. 

I find it interesting how molded we are by our experiences with our families. Better yet, how our characteristic differences are only noticed when we are blended together and our "traditional" habits clash creating a noticeable difference. 

With this I realize that no matter what we do, we will always bring a part of our family with us no matter where we go. Maybe its only because my time with my family has begun to trickle to a close that I notice these events that occur in everyday life but these moments are spectacular if you look at them with a deeper eye.

I cant say that I have a favorite all time movie but here are a few that cross my mind:
The Notebook, Forest Gump, The Social Network, & Titanic, What are yours?

35 days
5 weeks

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Snail Mail

Aren't postcards and letters in the mail such a thing of the past?

Well my cousin sent me a letter by mail the other day. I have not received a letter in the mail in a long time, normally people reach out to me on the internet. Now, having received a letter in the mail, I realize how impersonal it is to "chat" with someone on AIM, Facebook or email.


I sat down and responded to her on an adorable card with cream colors and pink flowers all over the front. It was really fun to write down a message for once and mail it off, I cant wait to do it again!

But first I must invest in some cute letters such as these, all pink and frilly, something that will make people smile when they open the less beautiful, plain, white envelope.

My cousin and I are making this "letters in the mail" a tradition now, we are becoming "pen-pals" in a sense. I encourage you to find someone to write to, its really thrilling! I plan on saving each letter I receive from her, I can't wait to watch the collection grow over time.
 
                                     

      38 days-all fingers crossed

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Youtube

Today I watched a video on Youtube, I have fallen in love with Youtube recently and I realize its not Youtube that I love, its the people I follow.

Yes, if Youtube didn't exist than I would not have the ability to love these people and so in a sense I love Youtube, but recently people on Youtube have been talking about the "community" youtube really is and how once you join you are actually apart of a family.

I think it is truly amazing how people are friends with people from across the world and even across the country because of this new found community. It is because of youtube I know people in the UK, New Orleans, Boston and LA; people I would have never met, which would have been a shame because some of these people have amazing thoughts and should have a way of sharing these thoughts with the world...Youtube does this, it connects the world.

42 wonderful. glorious. days.
meaning of life.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

SNOW

Its snowing here where I live, it was a big surprise because it is October-FALL not winter!
Im so shocked and I cant get over it-all I want to do is listen to Christmas music!

Just thought I would make a short and sweet post about the madness Mother Nature is presenting us here today!

Oh and; 46 days and 6 weeks! =P

Love ya! 

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Fourty-Eight

I just recently watched an amazing movie- The Awakening with Robin Williams (an amazing actor, I personally LOVE him in The Dead Poets Society). This was my first time ever seeing this movie, it is heart wrenching and beautiful! If you haven't seen it I highly recommend it; here is a trailer: 

48 days!!!!

In the words of The Awakening lets take these next 48 days "doing all the things we take for granted".

Oh and the best part about this story is that Robin Williams JUST got remarried and is honeymooning in Paris.  How romantic right? What a weird coincidence!! Congrats to the Newlyweds!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Fourty-nine

If you are wondering why this number above may not seem correct it is because I made a calculation mistake...

There are 49 days left in my countdown-which leads to big news (happy or sad)
In other news the latest Iphone 4s has been released (yes I am aware that I am more than a little late to be mentioning this, thank you) however with this exciting release came sad news, Steve Jobs died (also awhile ago, I know I know SHEESH!!) Steve Jobs was an amazing man brave enough to face the world with new inventions time after time. He was an idle to many and will be truly missed! My love goes out to his family. 


For those of you who dont know Steve had cancer, he was given 3 to 6 months to live and yet he lived with this cancer for 6 years. 


Here is my very small tribute to a huge man-someone who changed the way the world communicates and lives their daily lives. 
P.S. In case you didnt already know the Iphone 4s stands for- Iphone 4Steve- now doesnt that pull on ur heart strings? :/

Saturday, October 22, 2011

7 weeks

The strangest feeling is when you realize you have the power to become anything!

Think about it, you could become a doctor, mind you it would be alot of work but you could do it!
You could become a teacher, you could become a poet, you could become an actor or a Broadway star! If they interest you.

When you have all of these oppuerrtunities how are you supposed to know what you are supposed to become or what you will enjoy doing everyday for the rest of your life.  Is there actually a way to know?

These are just a few thoughts have trickled into my head lately. If you have the answer, please bestow your wisdom upon me in the comments below, I would love you hear from you.
only
   7                   

 more
     weeks!!!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Fifty-four

The noun and adjective quattuorquinquagintennium means a period of 54 years.

LIV is the Roman numeral for 54.

Atomic Number of Xenon (Xe) = 54 (54 protons & 54 electrons)

At the age of 54 Walt Disney (1901-1966), American film producer opened Disneyland (1955).

The 27th even number = 54

Product of 2nd odd & 9th even numbers = 3 x 18 = 54


         more                                       
54                      days

Monday, October 17, 2011

Fifty-five

55
  can
         mean
                   55 billion 
                                         different things

But to me, this 55 represents the 55 days I have barricaded around me, blocking me from important news.
As much as I cant wait for this news a small part of me does not want it. Right now, amongst the thousands of things I don't have, I have hope and faith. But when these 55 days pass my "chance" will be gone, a decision will have been made, many people "higher" and "above" me will know what my future is before it reaches me.

A part of me wants to never learn the news or the decision-I want to hold on to this hope forever- although it comes with a price.

One of dread, fear, worry, uneasiness, lack of sleep, irrationality, and an unclear direction. All of which make it hard to breath, almost as if these emotions are sitting on top of my respiratory system filling my lungs with dirty air. But with all this at least I have hope.

Dont get me wrong, when these 55 days pass and I receive this anticipated news I will most certainly rip the results open with my beating heart, rising blood pressure and the feeling of my stomach in my throat,  but a part of me will die in this moment, no matter what the results say, my hope will be gone; if only to move on and attach itself to another journey life will most certainly present me in the near future.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Count Down

This post marks a count down

A count down to a moment in my life that will determine a major change

When these 8 weeks (56 days) pass I will see where my achievements will lead me, what people will think of me, I will begin to imagine my future a little more clearly, may these days come and go smoothly- and honestly, fast!

I am scared
I am impatient
I am on edge
I am stressed
I am nervous
I am excited
I am jealous

I am waiting

Monday, August 29, 2011

Flow

Summer is coming to a close, as hard as it is for me to type those words its harder to wrap my head around it.
I look at my last post and ask myself the cliche "where did the time go?"
I hope that this new school year brings with it more blog post.

I have recently found this artist, her name is Ellie Goulding and her voice is outrageous! I cant choose a favorite song of hers so I will post the most recent one I have listened too : Nobody's Crying (it takes 15 seconds in the beginning of the video before you hear it)

A few other great songs of hers are, Your Song, Lights, Guns and Horses, Human and Starry Eyed. If you take anything from this post I hope its a new favorite Artist.

Until my next post, have a beautiful Fall!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Favorite Websites

One of my favorite websites is imnotobsessed.com, not only does it inform the reader of the latest hollywood gossip but the name is curious. In order for a website to do well it must have a following, this following must check the website at least 3 times a week or more, there implying that they are somewhat obsessed with this website. Whenever I type in imnotobsessed.com and press enter this thought occurs to me.

Never the less the website is full of wonderful pictures of celebrities of all ages. Something cool about this website is that if you move your mouse over the photo a sidebar pops up telling you where you can get a similar outfit.

Today I learned that not only is Lauren Conrad dating Kyle Howard but they broke up! Who knew?

Photo: http://www.imnotobsessed.com/page/3/

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Book Shelfs

As I mentioned earlier my plan is to empty my book case which is full of childhood books, my blue IPod Mini box, music folders and other miscellaneous objects and fill it shelf with books I have read during the course of this summer.
My expedition has begun.

Along with being a little nostalgic at times this clearance is helping me reclaim my space, it feels refreshing! I recently watched a Gilmore Girls episode and was reminded that this need to fill my room with never ending books came from Rory. There is one moment when Rory is talking to her grandfather, Richard, in her bedroom and she shows him her book collection. She has books under her bed, in her dresser and in a small book case on her wall and he calls it "organized chaos".

If you are not aware of Rory Gilmore and her reading "sickness" this video pretty much sums it all up:

Friday, June 24, 2011

Fun Friday

It has been awhile since I have posted-well simply poseted anything. . . I thought I would post something a little more fun so its "Fun Friday" time


Don't Cheat!



So, to me this one is a little easy but you should see two horses on the left and right up on their back legs almost kissing. . .the other image is a womens face right in the center!

I hope you enjoyed this, they are so fun and at times a brain teaser!
Happy Weekend!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Summer Challenge




Photo: http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.bookreporter.com/blog/blog/


With finals over it is officially summer! I can hardly believe it is time. Time to relax reading books, watching a TV show late at night not having to feel guilty over the fact I should be studying, time to sleep in-if it weren't for the human alarm clock- and time to start my challenge.


My plan for this summer is to read as many books as I possibly can! 
Every close to a school year I tell myself "Ugh I cant wait for summer so I can just read what ever I want!". Well, I never get around to it.

My plan is to empty my little book case given to me by my parents when I turned 13, it is chalk full of kids books that I also never read. When I was in elementary school we used to have book sales- they were like $1.50 each- I used to leave with about 5 that really interested me and only read 1 and half. So, I am going to donate these "child" books that I am obviously too old to read now and fill my sad book shelf with books I will complete this summer.

This week I am on a quest to go to Boarders and purchase Very Valentine By Adriana Trigiani.
This will be the first book of my challenge, feel free to join me, the more the merrier.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Surprise

Well, I have no words to explain why or what but I am back, at least right this very second. I would be lying if I said this "blogging experience" was easy, its not. You have to remember, find the time and most of all want/have something to say. I am not a fan of excuse makers and so I will not be making any but I will give fair warning that my post will be speratic but nothing less then whole hearted.

THE ROYAL WEDDING
I have always wished I had was English and that I had an English accent. Of course this dream is and will remain far fetched and only remained a dream as I hoped my family might be transferred to England. Kate and Prince William will be married this Friday and I can hardly wait! There are so many unanswered questions, what will Kates dress look like, will her hair be up or down (fingers crossed for down), will everything go according to plan or will some historic mistake take place? My heart breaks when I think that Diana is not here to witness her sons wedding but I am sure she would be proud of her son for finding someone he loves and loves him back. I was a little surprised to see that Kate seems to have lost weight since the engagement. This is also sad because she was the perfect size, the weight loss, to me, can be seen in her face. Her face now appears to be narrower and leaner. All in all it will be a magical and historic event that shall not be missed! You can count on me being up at 3:00 in the morning watching the wedding.The best part about this love story is that Kate will arrive in a car as a commoner and leave in a carriage as a princess!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

BEDA- Change

I know I am 2 days behind however better late then never! Right?

I first heard of this from Owlssayhooot-shout out- she is awesome! I love her red hair and her unique style. Not just her cloths (although I do love all of her outfits all the way to the multiple bracelets she wears) but her vlog and blog style, in other words her personality and the way she presents herself. 

Yesterday I treated myself to a Starbucks Coffee, it was delicious! My favorite is a Mocha Frap and or the Cafe Mocha! Both amazing choices however they give me a complete buzz. I must make sure that when I have one it is during the right time of day or I will never be able to fall asleep! Speaking of Starbucks, they are now putting a new logo design on their cups. It is simply the queen lady with her crown and wavy hair. In my opinion this is a shame because their logo is already so well recognized why make any changes? But I have never been a fan of change, even moving a chair from one side of the room to another no matter if it looks better or not. However oddly enough, after doing some research, I found out that they have had problems in the past with their logo. They have changed it, now, four times.
In the end the product is all that matters and lets face it, their coffee combination's are amazing.


Have an amazing rest of your weekend and treat yourself to your favorite drink. 

Friday, March 25, 2011

Fun Friday

In honor of this lovely Friday I have a fun activity-hence "Fun Friday"- at the bottom you will see a picture, take a close look at this optical illusion. 



DONT CHEAT! 

Well if you have fully tried here is what you should see:
Two faces looking at each other with their noses almost touching. You can see the noses in the very center of the picture. See it?

Friday's have always been relaxing because of the weekend that is promised after a long week of school work, a job and parenthood. It is a time when you can ponder, read, watch TV, watch movies, go in trips and on Sunday night cram in all the work you told yourself you would get done over the course of the weekends entirety. However the Friday before Spring Break holds a whole other purpose, it is a Friday filled with anticipation of the vacation soon to follow. And so to all those enjoying this Friday evening with the free feeling of Spring Break ahead of them I wish you an awesome break, for those who are not experienceing this type of Friday I wish you a wonderful ordinary but just as awesome end to a long week.
(I choose not to reference the already over "talked" song Friday by a Rebecca Black. Although I must admit I am afraid I will never not think of this song on a Friday which saddens me)

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Thoughtful Thursday

  Although so many people have paid their respects to this Hollywood icon I figure one more can not hurt. Miss Elizabeth Taylor died this week do to heart issues. She was the epitomy of old Hollywood glamor and style. She was always dressed head to toe in fabulous cloths and jewelry. This is a lost "art" now a days in Hollywood.

 A side from her movie fame and love life scandals she also helped promote research and awareness towards HIV/AIDS, something unheard of at the time. 

As Elizabeth puts it, "she lived".

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

My Beginning

Hello and welcome,

Let me start off by saying I am ecstatic to be starting this adventure, this is something  I have always wanted to do and I have finally found the courage. I must say that my main inspiration comes from this lovely lady,  http://chalk-jenny.blogspot.com/, please check her out because her blog is amazing. It is full of color, originality and her posts always hold a comical/peaceful element. We also share a few common loves, Gilmore Girls, Tom Welling, Smallville, reading and many more.

A few things you should know about me, I knit when I can, I love the rain- to me it is calming and peaceful- I am a huge Harry Potter fan (books and some of the movies), I am inspired by Michelle Williams and Emma Watson's short hair and someday hope to cut mine "boy short" too, I secretly wish I had an English/Australian accent and I hope to travel the world someday-preferably England and Paris- I know its cliche.   

That is all for now, but in the mean time enjoy this sunset on the beach.