Faith

Why are we so hard on ourselves? Or rather, why am I so hard on myself? As I sit here writing this the thoughts of more work, reading, essay writing and test studying are running around in the background of my mind. I can't move on from what I have to do, everything seems daunting. It is my wish that life could be about the bigger picture, about where you are in life at this moment and where you want to be in the future. Instead, we are so caught up on the little things. What gives our life meaning and who determines what the meaning is?

I want to live a life full of love and things that make me happy. i.e. baking cupcakes, reading books, living in a city or little cottage in the woods, watching Gilmore Girl reruns and hanging out with the people that matter the most to me. I want to travel to a country in need of food, education and help them to my fullest ability. I want to explore the world and experience things in different cultures-cliche I know. But will I actually do it?

Instead, I find myself dwelling on where I am now, a stressed college student questioning if I am really going down the right path and too afraid to change my direction if i'm not.

Most of all, I want to believe that my life has meaning, that there is somewhere I am meant to be and I am heading towards it. I believe that God has a set path for me but am I following it?

All I can do is trust and have faith.

Paper Towns

As stated earlier, I was reading Paper Towns by John Green and I finished it in about 3 days! Once again, no surprise to me, I couldn't stop reading. There is something about Greens writing that captivates his audience. Maybe its not even his writing style but the protagonist him/herself. They are always relate-able in some way or another and even if you cant find some small reason to relate there is something endearing or hilarious about the main character that enchants you. Aside from what I call is Johns "smart kid humor", meaning all of his hilarious nerd moments where a fellow geeks only choice is to relate, John creates a world of friends the reader can only wish they had! Whether that be now or when they themselves were young. The possibilities of interpretation of Greens writing style are endless and I encourage anyone to pick up a copy of his work, no matter which book you choose it is bound to me spectacular.






 I also finished the Dew Breaker and maybe its because a. I was forced to read it and b. I was forced to write an essay on it, that I dont want to really write a review simply because it feels like I have given this book more attention then it deserves! Perhaps is was simply not my taste but I did not enjoy this book, it felt dragged out and at times it was "sleepy" meaning more then once I found myself drifting asleep... but please dont let this review discourage you if you have planned to read it, in fact I hope this does the opposite, that it makes you curious enough to want to see how you feel.  

Summer Reads

Summer is the best time of year for multiple reasons but for book nerds like myself they are perfect for checking off books on your "To Read" list.

One of my new found favorite authors is John Green (As you can see off to the right corner) I still recommend The Fault in Our Stars if you haven't given it a go yet but I recently read my second book by Green and it was Looking for Alaska. Once again I couldn't put this book down! I am now on my third John Green (I picked this one up for the beach) called Paper Towns.

I will also be reading The Dew Breaker...

If you have any summer book loves, be sure to comment them below.

V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N

I have arrived at the beach!!! For the next two weeks I will be soaking in the rays with my family down by the pool, beach and tennis courts! This is the best part of summer, when you can relax and catch a wave.

We always go to the beach for two weeks, except last year we were unable too because my dad had to work...It has been 2 years since my feet have touched sand, I didn't even realize that until I was heading over for the first time yesterday. The water is beautiful but is it just me or do your legs itch when you leave the ocean water after standing in knee high for a minuet? Well mine always do and yesterday I experienced that...

I hope your having a spectacular summer and have time to go to the beach at some point...

Spiderman

I saw Spiderman at midnight last night (or should I say this morning) and it was AMAZING!

First of all I love Andrew Garfield! He is gorgeous! Not to mention I recently found out he has an English accent, as if he couldnt get anymore irresistible? I first "experienced" Andrew Garfield in one my all time favorite movies (not just because Garfield is in it but also because of the music and structure) and fell in love with him as an actor and as the handsome man he is! Emma Stone is one lucky girl! (In case you didnt know the two are dating in real life, they fell for each other while filming The Amazing Spiderman together)

Aside from the glorious fact Andrew was Peter Parker I was a little hesitant for this movie to come out, simply because I loved Toby Maguire and Kirsten Dunst in what I call, the "original Spiderman" movies. I recall being a little kid and staying out late with my older brother to see those movies so I guess you could say they are kind of nostalgic for me, hence my hesitance. However I learned for the first time last night that there were always 2 Spiderman comics! I never knew this, and to be honest I dont know the entire background. There are a few differences for instance, Tobey plays the Spiderman with webs that shoot out of his wrist area where as Andrews' Peter Parker creates wrist machines that shoot the web out for him. Their love interest have different names, Kristen was Mary-Jane and Emma is Gwen. I have to say, the one major difference about the budding love between the two Spidermans and their girls is how Emma and Andrew are together faster in the movie, and Gwen learns that Peter is Spiderman sooner then Mary-Jane did which I personally loved.

Are you going to see The Amazing Spiderman? I highly recommend it!

Have a spectacular rest of the week, I will be daydreaming of Andrew Garfield and his sexy English accent.

Over the 2nd Day Hump

WOW!
So much has changed since yesterday, in fact it has changed for the worse!
I was doing so well yesterday (with my wisdom teeth removal) but today hurts 10x more, its unbelievable! Two sets of the stitches fell out on their own which some what worries me but I'm just letting it be.. the pain around the gum area where I move to smile/talk hurts the most. To make things worse I have heard that the third day is the worst as far as pain goes so I'm not looking forward to tomorrow!

Today was the birthday of this boy I babysit for and I helped out with his pool party! Its so cute how obsessed they are with holding their breath underwater, some how I became the person to count for them while they held their breath. The record holder was Matt with 1 min and 7 seconds! For being out in the sun from 12:30-3:10 I am shocked at how tan my arms are, in fact I have a hair tie tan on my right wrist!

Im planning a trip into the city and the goal is to find a toy store with a piano that you play with your feet like in the Tom Hanks movie Big. Hopefully, if I have done my research correctly, there will be on at Fao Shwarz. Who knows, maybe I'll break out playing chop sticks too?!

All is well, until tomorrow!

Losing My Wisdom

Ok so maybe I have not lost my "Wisdom" but today I did have my Wisdom TEETH removed and for weeks and weeks before hand people told me about there experience:

1. My older brother swelled up in the face for a solid 4 days! He was a chipmunk!
2. A friend of a friend of a friend had swollen cheeks for 3 weeks... How? I dont know...
3. My friend didn't come to school for a week due to her swollen cheeks and pain.
4. My cousin could not eat real food for 3 weeks
5. My other friend was told she was getting hers out by surprise from her father and was driving the same day (in other words she was fine)
6. My soon to be roommate was in so much pain and could not eat for 3/ 4 days..

So basically I had no idea what to expect, everyone was telling me one thing and then another and the majority of the stories were bad stories, about how it was the most painful experience of their life.

One of my friends, a true and sweet friend, called me with in the first word of my removal and talked to me for about 15 min. I really was not too afraid but it was nice to hear from her. It was a moment in my life that I will not forget simply because it was a sincere act of kindness.

And so what were my results?
I felt extremely tired! And yet I was incrusted I could not sleep until 2 hours AFTER the surgery. The main was very minimal, I was really cold for some reason and I am proud to say I do NOT look like a chipmunk! My cheeks are not swollen at all, it is spectacular! The doctor had told me due to my fair skin I might enquire some bruising but so far so good and with my luck so far I do believe I wont have any.

I hope the rest of my recovery goes as smoothly as it has so far! Have a spectacular rest of your weeks! ITS SUMMER!